Well, I had planned to start this entry with "Could this day BE anymore perfect?" But then I found out some of my LJ friends had horrible days and it kinda diminished the perfection of mine. But, I'd still venture to say my day was still awesome.

I woke up at like 7:15 or so and did a little quick treatment, just Acapella and TOBI. Then I ate a grilled cheese sandwich before we all went off to the fair.

We arrived at 8:30 and went straight to the rabbit and cavy area to check on Jenna. She was fine, just chillin' under the towel canopy we gave her. Derek petted her a bit but otherwise didn't really want much to do with her.

Her show started a bit after 9:00, and Americans were up first because there were no Abysinians. It was her and two boars, so of course she got Best Opposite Sex. The judge said her face markings could be more symmetrical with crisper lines. And that she was too fat to be a junior. I don't know if she's too fat overall of just too fat for that class... The winning American was the boar that won BIS last year. This year he got RIS because there was`an awesome Coronet there.

After that we milled around and looked at animals, which bored Derek. BUT it rekindled my love of sheep. I want a Romney now, natural wool (which is the brown color with a black face). So so adorable! My friend from camp had a white Romney that gave birth to two natural colored ones, and they are the sweetest things! <3 They had alpacas in today, too, and they were humming cutely.

My grandmother lives like 15 minutes from the fair, so we went over there. I ate some Skittles and watched GSN. Chain Reaction was on! Also, Whammy and 1 vs 100. It was a good television day. She made Derek and I TV dinners for lunch.

The apartment my uncle is making in the upper levels of her house is ready. They interviewed someone about renting it already. But, they just took all of her clothes from up there and shoved them on the dining room table. =_= So Mom and I went through and helped her decide which to keep and which to give to Goodwill. I got a few of her belts because they actually fit my waist, and also a nightgown just for the heck of it. They also ended up finding my baptism dress from when I was a tiny baby, which was awesome. But, anyway, yeah, it wasn't too hard a job but my grandmother gave me an extra $4 for it...

My two youngest cousins showed up just as we were finishing. My aunt brought them over to tidy up the apartment for the interview/tour thing. Yeah. Well I ended up helping with that a bit, in that I sweeped the floor and the front step. And I brought a step ladder up but then I started coughing and decided to stop.

Grandmother's house is the only place I really have access to a scale, so again I weighed myself. Probably shouldn't have... I have lost another pound :( 104 now... Granted, I HAVE been doing awful with enzymes (as in, not taking them at all), and my meals have been off, but still. That's very upsetting. So now I'm going to have to go back to the Scandishake milkshakes this week to try and gain it back. And try to actually remember to do the blood sugar readings.

BUT I do have one piece of good news on the CF front. The Colistin got approved! So no more fighting over that, which is a relief.

ANYWAY, back to the story. We had to go back to the fair to bring Jenna home, and the cousins were supposed to stay out of the way during the interview anyway, so we brought them alon to the fair with us. They fought in the car, and walking down the path, and in the barns, pretty much anywhere. LOL. The littlest one loved the rabbits the best. He wanted to rush through allthe other animals but we kinda forced him to take a little time. I showed them my friend's awesome natural wool sheep, and my 4-H leader's kids' cows. They also got to help water our club's garden. We bought them ice cream and they ate that while I went over to the "firing range."

It's just a trailer thing they parked in a pavillion and they had air rifles that you use to shoot. I had no clue what I was doing so the guy had to help me, a lot. But I shot all the shots myself, and they were all on the target LOLz. I also got 4 on the black zone around the bullseye. Derek also tried, but with very little success. My girl cousin also tried, and she did okay. The youngest one was too young to do it.

At 7:00 they had the Livestock Auction so I took the cousins to that, while Mom was in charge of the rabbit and cavy building. I'd never been to the auction before, in all my years in 4-H. It was suspenseful, actually. But a lot of the animals would make loud sounds, almost as if prostesting their fate. It was slightly sad, but not too sad because, hey, I love meat. My uncle came to pick the cousins up during the auction, but he let them stay and watch for a little bit. We all left together, uncle and cousins and my household, with Jenna.

We got home like 8:00. I pretty much chilled with TV and ate some Bagel Bites. I know, not nearly enough. I have to have room for feeds, and don't want to throw up with treatment.

Poor Sallykins. She is worrying me again. She is just sitting there in her cage, all curled on her side, and not eating right anymore. I took her out for over an hour and just lied on the couch next to her. I was sorta crying. It's like, I don't know why she's like this because it's not like her eyes are crusty or anything. It might be her teeth again... Mom is calling for a vet appointment on Monday. Why must my piggies always get sick on weekends??

So... yup. That's my day. The title is something my Mom said, after one of those Enzyte commericals.

So remember how I told you guys about clearing my harddrive on the upstairs computer? And finding those old writings I did like in 2005?

Yeah. Well I'm on the upstairs computer now (doing iTunes stuff) so I figured I'd take the opportunity to post one of them before I forget or Derek claims this computer LOLz.

This is actually a really awesome poem, especially considering I wrote it back in like 8^th grade or so (was 2005 8^th grade year?? Meh.) One of my middle school English teachers had us do these writing projects called FOCs. I have forgotten what that stands for. But this is something I wrote for one of those.

The imagery is strong, if a bit juvenile, but it has great rythm and the rhyme is there and only slightly forced.

( On the Farm )

Hey all. So, this is the last of my chapbook poems. This is also my favorite out of all of them. I just love it so much, because it is talking about art AND uses metaphors, and it's another one of those where I chose the words carefully for effect. It's just awesome.

In the book, I used this stuff called modge-podge and tissue paper to make like an abstract picture of a pink flower. You'll understand why after you read it (if I did my job as author right.)

( ART AVANT GARDen )

Hey all! You might be thinking this is a pretty wierd time for someone in summer school to be posting. Well, you'd be right. I'm taking a day off today, as you'll hear soon.

Yesterday I went to school as usual. We took a test on nutrition and started our SexEd unit. My teacher has a reslly awkward voice for that unit, it's like halting and borders on monotone. I don't mind missing it at all. We also listened to this guy talk about abstinence for 2 hours. =_=

Meanwhile, the other class is watching movies. Not health movies, no, real movies. It was 28 Days. How is this fair?? HOW I ask you?

Ahem. Well, I got home and Mom and I made a cake for fair. Food entries are due today, and that's the reason I took off of school. We have to make everything from scratch, and I made a chiocolate cake, two layers. It was a no-mixer cake, and it was so easy to make. And smells amazingly chocolatey! ^_^

At like 5:30 I went over my friend K's house. Her mom decorates cakes so her mom was helping me make frosting (buttercream ^_^), then color it and use the icing bags to draw my design. I was extraordinarily pleased with it, especially since it's my first-ever cake.

( pic )

That's very *squee*.

OMG! OMG, also, my AP results finally arrived!!! I have been running to the mailbox everyday for the past week waiting for them, and they've finally come. My scores are: 5, APUSH, 5 English Language and Composion, and 2, French Language. I kinda figured I'd fail French, so that's not too big a deal. But I am quite ecstatic about the 5s, especially English. It's like, confirmation that I'm going in the right direction.

So... yup. That's my day. Today I am bringing my cake in to the fair and just hanging out there all day. LOLz. Yay for Fair Season!

Hi there!

Today I was so tired when I woke up, because I was up late last night. Well, relatively late. being like a bit after 11.

But wake up I did, for summer school. I got there with like 7 minutes to spare, which is late for me as it is. The break crowd was standing around talking so I joined them for 6 of the 7 minutes, so as not to be late.

We did nutrition today. It was actually more applicable than usual, as the teacher spent more time talking about what you should eat then what you shouldn't. We did an interesting essay about the perception of fat people in America and the media's role in people's unrealistic standards for weight. Another interesting activity was this thing to determine how many Calories you need a day to maintain weight. It doesn't factor in my CF or anything, but I think it's interesting. Except I couldn't do the math without a calculator. There was also a video that was like from the 80s about beating fat and keeping it off, and they showed this HUGE rat. It was 200% overweight, and it looked so disgustingly gross, like the fat just kinda oozed down and settled on the scale when it was put down. I'll see if I can find a picture of it... can't, I'm sorry :(

I've decided that I will refer to my friends by first initial on here, so it's easier to keep it straight who I'm talking about. I was chatting with an aquaintance from school, C, on the bus again today, and it was a good conversation about changes to roadways and traffic patterns. The break group, which had C in it as well as friend R and other classmates A and B was talking about fast food and comparing the different "restaurants" that serve it, though not on the bus.

I got home and immediately made a TV dinner, chicken fingers. I was watching MTV for a change, because Parental Control was on, followed by Room Raiders. That is a funny show right there! I then put on Ellen. She was doing a $3000 giveaway to this family and they hopped in this money machine that whirls cash around. I wanted to watch the Oprah interview with John Edwards' wife, Elizabeth, but Mike woke up. He was in one of his rare nice moods and was telling stories of when he was a teenager. I also got out my sewing and did some of that before Mom came home.

And so, we begin another round of Mom vs. Insurance Company. This is round 2. We switched insurance, effective July 1^st and, surprise surprise, they aren't covering the Colistin. Mom had to fight tooth and nail to get it covered under the last insurance, and even then they were ridiculous about it. So she has to start over from square one now. It is sooo frustrated; we shouldn't have to fight the insurance company in addition to the disease! Obama healthcare reform, where are you?? I don't even like the Colistin. *shakes head sadly*

I was thinking of writing to Ellen to see if we can get on the summer giveaway thing, like the lady today who got $3000 dollars today. She said to write about why you are deserving, so it'd go something like this "We need the $3000 to cover just under two months of my medicine!" Yay! Do you guys think it's a good idea to do that?

In the mail today, I did NOT get my AP results. But I did get a letter from Miss Teen USA and Miss USA pageant inviting me to participate. I know they probably send it to everyone, but it still made me feel really good. Like, I was actually considering entering... I guess that's the danger of confidence, eh? I could raise awareness for CF with it, and also possibly some money for college and medicines and stuff... my brother said that I'm "not pretty enough" to enter. But he didn't mean it in a mean way, it's just like I'm not flippin' gorgeous like those contestant girls, and I'm not like the traditional beauty. So I'm not mad or anything. It's probably a bad idea to enter anyway.

Well, yup. That's my day. Fun times. Look for the last chapbook poem to be up tommorrow.

Hey fellow LJers! Hope you're ready for a tale of fun and excitement. (not)

Today I woke up at like 9:30ish, so I didn't get enough sleep, given that I didn't go to bed until after 2am last night. I was busy re-reading for like the fifth time Robyn's Book, which is the diary and creative writings of a girl suffering from CF, from 1964 to 1985. She was 21 when she died, which is sad. But her writings and her insights are amazing, and actually motivate me to do all I can for myself. She says, and this is my favorite quote from the book, "The disease can make you stronger, if you let it." That is true of any disease, but I think especially so for CF because it's progressive. So you experience new aspects of the disease as it goes on, and it forces you to adapt and change. (unless you're going to just give up and stop doing the therapies and self-destruct.) Like, for me personally, it has me more mature than I otherwise would have been, and it has greatly strengthened my faith. And I have become more pro-active about my health and my appearance as a result of the changes CF causes to both. I'm responsible in doing my treatments and feeds. Plus I have learned time management skills most people don't have at my age. Like, I have never stayed up late to finish a paper or other assignment, because I always have to alot that hour of my day to treatment at night, and because of the need for tube feeds. And I do need them. So, yeah. Robyn's Book is a great read for lovers of good writing, autobiographies, and just tales of strength and courage. You can learn more about CF, too, although some of the stuff in there is outdated. But, it is very sad at some points. Like, it makes me cry even though I know what's coming.

Well... moving on. I woke up at 9:30ish and got dressed for church. I ate a bowl and a half of Reese's Puffs cereal before leaving.

At church I sang in the chior again, only one lady was missing so my voice sounded extra loud. LOLz. The sermon was great, though. It was talking about God being a God of abundance who will give you what you need, but sometimes He will do that in order to give to others around you, by using your surplus.

After church we ran home quickly to change and go out again. Mom was going to the store so I asked her to bring me paper cups because she owed me some (her words) for forgetting last time. I also asked her about my Advair prescription, since she'd be out and I was trying to save her a trip. I had told her days ago that I needed a refill, so today I only had 3 puffs left. She got really mad when I asked if she'd called it in, like insanely mad. It is not my fault that she didn't remember to do it. So I was mad at her because I always get blamed for EVERYTHING and she acts like it's such a big inconvenience.

But we ended up getting the prescription filled, but it made me late for my friend's birthday cookout. It was fine; I didn't miss anything but it still annoyed me. My friend's mom let Derek stay at the party, too, so Mom went on her own to our grandmother's house. At the party they were playing a game called Left 4 Dead on the X-Box when I got there. It involed shooting the crap out of zombies. It actually did look pretty fun.

I was just chilling there watching them play and they were all saying inside jokes and being rather vulgar and sexual about them. I just felt so isolated and alone, because I see no reason for any of that stuff. Like, intelligent conversation plz. So I felt like I wanted to cry, but I was pretending to be happy because it's a party. They eventually calmed down a bit, but I didn't feel better until after I had eaten some chips and drank juice. That scared me, guys! Because, I don't know a lot about diabetes and low blood sugar, but I have heard it makes you moody/irritible. I didn't do a feed last night, so there's a chance that messed up my sugars... God, I hope not. I'll have to start the blood sugar tets this week and see how they look... does that sound like diabetes to you, or just feeling isolated?

Um... so, yeah. I was laughing and joking with the rest of them after my juice. My friend's dad was cooking on the grill and he cooked chicken pieces, hamburgers, and hotdogs. I ate like 5 chicken bits because they were AMAZING, and half of a small burger. The chips I ate were cheese and chives flavor. They also made me a virgin strawberry daquiri, and it was really good! So I ate fresh strawberries today (in the form of a drink LOLz). I also ate a good chunk of Hershey's Dark Chocolate ^_^

The people playing beat the Left 4 Dead game. My friend's boyfriend kept poking her to get her attention, but when that didn't work well enough he started pushing buttons on her controller. She got really mad and screamed the title several times. I thought it was funny, being that it was an unintentional pun and all.

Derek and I left at like 6:45, with like half of a delicious choclate cake with buttercream icing and banana pudding to take home with us. I did some cross-stitching when I got home and finished the rabbit.

Mike annoyed me again. He couldn't find a TV dinner of his, because my friend ate it last time she was here. Mom bought her a spagetti one but didn't tell her which was hers so she chose the rice one, which was Mike's. So Mike goes off about her being a "fat bitch" and all, and my mom's like "it's a mistake." He seems convinced that anything that happens to him is done to be purposefully malicious. He certainly has the personality where that'd be true, but surely not all the time. He hates my BFF because he was sleeping and she tripped and caught herself but it was loud and woke him up. So he's convinced she did it on purpose, to wake him up. That's completely ridiculous.

A LOT of what he says is completely ridiculous. The other day we were watching AMW about this Neo-Nazi guy, and he said "We should have 30 more of those groups! They get the NAACP and the Black Panthers so why can't we have that?" Oh, and another gem of a quote "We should reinstitute slavery just to get those people off the streets." Really, now? Really? It's just so ridiculous and bigoted and I can't stand to be around it. Really, how much more of a bigot can you be? *shakes head angrily, yet slightly sadly for him*

Wow, I guess everyone is going on a mass posting spree today. 3 entries in a row...

This is the 5^th of 6 chapbook poems I've written. This one is my least favorite... I actually kinda hate it, because I added a whole stanza when I turned it in to make it more clearly relate to my theme, solitude. (read: Mom made me add a new stanza because she didn't think the relation to my theme was clear.)

But, well, I promised them all.
( Cloud Gazing )

Hi all! *waves a big sweeping wave*

Today I slept until 11:45. TT_TT. I never sleep past 10 because it makes me feel like a bum. But I was very tired apparently...

So I got up and pretty much immediately ate lunch, which was chicken cordon bleu again. Then Mom and Derek went to the animal shelter and left me at home because of the tennis thing. I felt that I should be productive while waiting for it to be time to go so I cleaned the piggy cage. I was going to wait until I got back but that worked.

My friend texted me and said she was already there, and that we were going to the high school now not the middle school. They had this big town fair thing today at the high school that she wanted to check out. I wanted to check it out, too, so that worked out great.

I walked on down there (like a 2-3 minute walk LOLz). They had booths everywhere with various organizations and businesses running them. I was looking for my church's booth but I couldn't find it. :( But they did have a petting zoo with adorable sheep in it, a white one and a brown one (called natural wool). There was also an adorable little cow calf and several small goats. My friend was fascinated by this Flemish giant rabbit, which as the name implies was HUGE. They had a llama that liked its neck rubbed. Another booth had this pen thing full of Shelties. Guys, they are the most adorable dogs! They come in all sizes and colors, and are so soft and friendly. This one was really short, like shorter than my knee, and had the sweetest expression on it face. They have long fur on their bodies but short-furred faces like a fox. SO cute!

After that my friend and I met up with two other people to play tennis. We all sucked, epically, but no one was really trying. Orchestra Guy didn't come. :( I texted him about the change of location and he said he couldn't make it. But he put a frowny face in his message, so I don't think it was because he didn't want to go and he was making an excuse. I am thinking I might call Orchestra Guy OG, just because it's easier to type, and fun and adorable to say. Go ahead, say it. Oh-Jee. Hahahah, I love it!! Anyway, the title is something my friend said during a brief break in playing. It was funny at the time...

Anywho, after playing for a bit we went BACK to the festival and the other two wandered away, but we met ANOTHER friend to wander around with. I bought an ice cream cone dipped in chocolate, and it was great. This guy kept pestering us to buy a snowball, he's like "A large snowball for $1! You can't beat that! $1! I'm losing my mind, one dollar for a large snowball." He ended up giving my friend one for free, which was nice. But I don't particularly like snowballs so I didn't get one.

Um, so we walked around some more and looked at the booths. There was a guy there who works at the office of a local delegate in the state legislature and he was really nice and friendly. He is an alumna of my school. And he said if I go to school in Maryland our district offers a scholarship. *sigh* So much money is being offered to stay in Maryland...

I really wanted to buy a purse, because people were selling awesome homemade ones, and also a t-shirt that says "I heart (name of my hometown)" but I only had $10, minus $4 for the ice cream :( I am broke, guys. I need fair premiums, soon! But I told my mom I want a shirt promoting my hometown before I go off to college, so maybe I'll get one as a gift? I can always ask again, or ask another relative for one.

Speaking of relatives, my grandmother from Pennsylvania is like "You should stop by here next time you visit a PA college!" I've been wanting to visit for years; it's not my fault if Mom doesn't like driving that far and Dad doesn't have a car. If I had my own car I could go myself. But that would mean getting my learner's, which Mom has shown no indication of wanting to do. *le sigh* But, also, I have an uncle who moved to Texas. My aunt (his wife) was messaging me on Facebook and she's like "We're coming up there in August so we can pick you guys up and you can stay with us at my mom's house." I would love that, and she wants to take my dad too. But, the dates they are there overlap with vacation partly, by like 4 days. So if we went it's only be like 3 days, the equivalent of spending a weekend up there. Is this enough? Either way it's up to my mom, and I haven't asked her about it yet.

After the festival (we stayed til 5, when it ended) we played some more tennis for like 20 minutes and then we all went home. LOLz. I just chilled and took a short nap (see how lazy I get when I sleep in?), did some word puzzles and read a bit of a book. I also did some cross-stitch on my project, which is due I think Wednesday, or possibly Tuesday. Fair is so close, and I am excited!

Gotten from colbertobsessed, actually with her permission this time. But I came up with that title myself, and think it's pretty awesome.

Directions: Leave me a comment and I will give you a letter (only if you want to me to). Then, write 10 things that you love starting with that letter. Post the list in your journal. Give out letters to your commenters in return.

I recieved the letter M.

1. movie theater popcorn
2. Mythbusters
3. Murray (Andy, the tennis player. Not as good as Fed, but he's my second fave.)
4. Magical Melody (best Harvest Moon game)
5. Maya Angelou books and poems
6. More Friends of Mineral Town (another awesome Harvest Moon game)
7. Milky Way Midnight candy
8. MS Paint (for all my computerized art needs!)
9. Milk!!
10.Mead products (NoteBinder, notebooks etc.)

That was actually harder than it seemed at first glance... because I was trying to be specific and not do the cheap thing and say "my mom" and "my ___________".